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ITSNOTSAFE's avatar

That was a very generous and gentle telling of your life's journey so far. I want to say how sorry I am you lost your dear brother. I am younger but same generation. I lost my brother only 13 months younger than me to an asthma attack that was such a loss and likely preventable.

Our life journey sort of parallels in that we both lived in the time of the Vietnam War. I am glad you survived. I was in Europe as well as Ireland for three months probably a bit after your visit. My lifelong friend and I cycled thru, camped, hosteled, hitched England, Wales, Ireland, France, Switzerland and Holland. Your reference to checking for a telegram was our practice as well. I was 20 just graduated from a community college. I would write my family every Wednesday as would they write to me on the same Wednesdays. I always knew where we would be the following Wednesday. I remember arriving in Amsterdam and checking for that telegram. No cell phones and no money either!! Long story.

But as I entered adult life those challenges you mention started to fall like rocks. I did develop a spiritual life outside my religion that got me thru each one. And, I had so many experiences that were beyond explanation to the point that today I carry a confidence coupled with the distress of a crisis that I'll be okay. I believe there is a force of some type that does most of the navigating, so that instills faith in me all will be well, stay the course.

I have a large box that once was a COTSCO cracker box that for the past 16 years I use to write a note to God for help. The box is closed, and I fashioned a cut out where I drop my notes. I check the box every 3 years or so and did so today not having checked it in a much longer period of time. I read one or two notes which are dated from around 2011, and the kick is to see from the perspective of "the future" me how well all turned out.

Today I read two notes one of which I had forgotten, both notes describe great despair and a prayer rather specific as to what I needed and a humble request for God's grace and blessings. Same generation and same difficult at times but navigated with similar tools. Take care young man!!

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Bob Swandby's avatar

Lovely story Raissa. Thank you for sharing it. We can’t go through life without pain and loss, but some seem to get a heavier dose than others. I think it’s not what happens to us so much as how we perceive and handle it, and you’ve done a good job. It’s what builds character and helps us grow spiritually on this journey through life. 🧡 The orange heart is for healing. I’m a long term Reiki practitioner.

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ITSNOTSAFE's avatar

Thank you for reading my story -- and the healing orange heart you sent to me.

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Susan Bruns's avatar

I so enjoyed reading this, Bob. Thank you for sharing it and your wisdom.

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Bob Swandby's avatar

Susan, thank you for reading it!

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